★ 09/07/25 where im at rn
If it weren't for the dire state of American political affairs I'd say it's been a very good year. I just celebrated my one year anniversary with my wonderful best friend and partner, I've been going to therapy and unpacking some chronic shame, I've started taking Adderall, and generally doing all I can to offer myself happiness and stability. It's crazy to see how much energy I have for life right now, so much so that I'm almost overwhelmed by possibility. It's like some of the weight's been lifted and I want to do it all. I'm trying to set realistic goals, one of which is maintaining an online presense and sharing myself and my work more freely (without totally freaking out). Consitstency has always been the hardest thing for me, but I've learned one of my most valuable skills I've had to develop over the years is the ability to pick myself back up and start again.

★ 10/09/25 things i'm working on
I've been working to get my commissions and art streams organized and ready for the rest of the year. The plan is to start maybe in November, I'm a little nervous to make a big deal of it though. I've streamed in the past and while I've enjoyed it I was never consistent enough to keep it going. It would be a nice way to interact with the art community more and give me things to post on tiktok, but it also feels like another iron in the fire. I have too many irons in this fire!! I'm really excited about having the motivation to work on everything I want to but now I have to CHOOSE what to work on. Organizing on Notion has been a blessing but I'm also so into managing my Notion pages that that's it's own separate hobby lol.
So right now the things I want to accomplish or work on in the next few months are as follows...

• ★ draw and rig a pngtuber for streaming
• ★ maintain social media accounts with consistency posting art, OC talk and stream clips (mainly on tiktok, neocities and bluesky)
• ★ draw more OCs, get portraits of them drawn
• ★ make OC pages here and on toyhouse
• ★ get overlays redone, either commissioned or drawn myself
• ★ make website more fun, update blogs/shrines
• ★ expand my digital garden- being more purposful in deciding what content i absorb and taking notes
• ★ working towards starting a DND campaign in january
• ★ read more books!!

phew, that was a lot! it's nice to have it all dumped out here. i feel like im catching up on a decade of fighting my brain now that i'm medicated. it's a good overwhelm though!

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