★ 09/07/25 where im at rn
If it weren't for the dire state of American political affairs I'd say it's been a very good year. I just celebrated my one year anniversary with my wonderful best friend and partner, I've been going to therapy and unpacking some chronic shame, I've started taking Adderall, and generally doing all I can to offer myself happiness and stability. It's crazy to see how much energy I have for life right now, so much so that I'm almost overwhelmed by possibility. It's like some of the weight's been lifted and I want to do it all. I'm trying to set realistic goals, one of which is maintaining an online presense and sharing myself and my work more freely (without totally freaking out). Consitstency has always been the hardest thing for me, but I've learned one of my most valuable skills I've had to develop over the years is the ability to pick myself back up and start again.

★ 10/09/25 things i'm working on
I've been working to get my commissions and art streams organized and ready for the rest of the year. The plan is to start maybe in November, I'm a little nervous to make a big deal of it though. I've streamed in the past and while I've enjoyed it I was never consistent enough to keep it going. It would be a nice way to interact with the art community more and give me things to post on tiktok, but it also feels like another iron in the fire. I have too many irons in this fire!! I'm really excited about having the motivation to work on everything I want to but now I have to CHOOSE what to work on. Organizing on Notion has been a blessing but I'm also so into managing my Notion pages that that's it's own separate hobby lol.
So right now the things I want to accomplish or work on in the next few months are as follows...

• ★ draw and rig a pngtuber for streaming
• ★ maintain social media accounts with consistency posting art, OC talk and stream clips (mainly on tiktok, neocities and bluesky)
• ★ draw more OCs, get portraits of them drawn
• ★ make OC pages here and on toyhouse
• ★ get overlays redone, either commissioned or drawn myself
• ★ make website more fun, update blogs/shrines
• ★ expand my digital garden- being more purposful in deciding what content i absorb and taking notes
• ★ working towards starting a DND campaign in january
• ★ read more books!!

phew, that was a lot! it's nice to have it all dumped out here. i feel like im catching up on a decade of fighting my brain now that i'm medicated. it's a good overwhelm though!

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★ 10/24/25 travelling and concerts!
I'M SO EXCITED! I'm going on my first big trip with my partner tomorrow morning, from the PNW alll the way to St. Louis. We're seeing Ludo, a geeky alt. rock band that we've both loved since our middle school days, they were actually the first concert either of us had ever gone to back in the day when they were still touring. I'm really grateful that I get to go as an adult with adult money and adult freedom with my absolute favorite person on Earth. It's going to be a very festive trip, not only is the band very ghoulish and Halloween centered, but we'll be going to a haunted house the first night. Maybe peruse some museums and gay bars, both of which will be similarly themed for my very favorite holiday. I only wish we were staying longer...
To prepare I DIY'd a shirt with a line from one of my favorite songs on their album "The Horror of Our Love" which is honestly very me and my girlfriend coded. I would crawl into her ribcage if I could 100%. Can't wait to build an outit around it, I'm thinking vampy makeup and a black/red/white scheme. I love to dress for an event!!

★ 03/11/26 February Recap
Hey so I need time to slow down a bit because there's no way we're already almost halfway through March... This Year has been so busy between starting training for a new job, travel, friend events, and a x3 ILLNESS COMBO- Seriously, I've been sick once a month this year and im SICK of it!!!
I'm currently in the middle of studying for my Health Insurance Exam, having just passed my exam for Life a few weeks ago. I was never any good at studying in school (due to what I would later find out was the ADHD...) and mostly flubbed my way into A's and B's. It's not so easy to BS learning insurance law and it's actually been such a challenge learning how to learn stuff that is less than exciting to me. It will be worth it to escape retail and if I'm lucky this job will afford me some flexibility both in my schedule and financially. It feels a bit odd throwing myself into a new career on a whim like this, I never considered sales as a career before but I've been bored to death in retail for a while and I need a drastic switch up. I can't tell if it will be easier or harder than I expect, I guess we'll see!!
Also as of the 28th of February I have been of this Earth for 29 years!! Happy Bday to mee~!